Saturday, January 12, 2013
Exhibition, sickness, and changing plans
Sorry for being silent for so long. I have been really sick, vomiting every day for three weeks, and utterly fatigued, dizzy and shaky.
The problem is most likely adrenal insufficiency. I have a brain tumor, in the pituitary gland, so that is might be causing hypopituitarism, which in turn causes hypothyroidism, adrenal insufficiency /Addison's disease and so on. Low cortisol levels cause the nausea and vomiting. But there is no diagnosis yet, nor treatment. I'm having a MRI of the head and adrenal glands next weeks.
Indiana's problems seem to be resolving. In the MRI there was shadowing on both sides of the head, that was from the ear infection having seeped further in the head. She is having tubes put in both ears on Tuesday, and the doctor said it wouldn't surprise him if even the double vision would be corrected after that. So it's a really bad infection, that went unnoticed for a long time because there was no pain.
The exhibition is in a really unfortunate time, but I will have help in hanging it up, and of course the gallerist is there too.
If anyone living close by is interested in coming to the opening, you are most welcome! Of course you could check it out later too.
We have had to postpone the house building project. The log house company is amazing, we just moved it to the summer 2014, and they will even let us cancel the project early 2014 if it looks like we still can't go through with it. I honestly do not know at this point.
We will build the road anyway, and go camping there in the summer ;)
So what I'm thinking now is... we should always flow with the current of life, not falling too much in love with our dreams, not letting them become obsessions. It's good to know one's limits, and back out when you intuitively know that is what you need to do. A tiny log house, however sweet an idea, is not a good enough reason to kill myself you know? Any Thing in this world is not worth of such an attachment.